To Me

In continuation to my post earlier today:

During breakfast, I was listening to Leona Lewis' rendition of Snow Patrol's RUN:



I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done



And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here



Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear



Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say



To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do



Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear



Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say



Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear



Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say


This became my muse for what I wrote during breakfast:


Walk my way
I'll be here waiting
To the winds, I'll pray
To bring you to me


Even if you can't hear my voice
Know that I'm whispering your name
Even though my arms are far from you
Its embrace still holds us close together


Run to me
I'll meet you here
Keep your faith in me
Yours I hold within


Knowing I can't look into your eyes
Justifies my loneliness here
But I'll still be here waiting
Against time to be together once more

The One With A Strange Dream

Last night, I had a particularly strange dream. What was more rare was the fact that I recalled the dream . . . This is something I have always had the unfortunate (un)ability to do.

Anyway . . .
I dreamt that I could fly. I could also manipulate the thoughts and actions of others (which, I already can do in real life, what with me being the Evil Mastermind that I am). I was living on an island. And somehow, I also had the ability to find pearls. Round creamy colored. Big and small.

So, there was a couple who managed to persuade me to tell them where they can also find the pearls on the island. I pointed it out on a map for them. But when they went to look for the pearls, the man and woman could not find any. I flew to that part of the island and I easily found plenty. And I also found the biggest pearl there was. I manipulated the man and woman to go find pearls elsewhere while I continued looking. Then I realized they had found some on the beach near where I was looking. So, I went to them and, again, made them go look elsewhere. I took their pearls for my own. I do not recall what I did with those pearls, but I do recall that by sending them away, I had made the couple angry with me.

Then it was sunset. Everyone on the island retreated indoors. From behind glass walls, they looked at the sunset across the horizon. I, on the other hand, decided to continue looking for pearls on the beach. It was then, that I realized that in my dream, the sunset is dangerous . . . much like radiation, hence the need for people to retreat behind the glass barriers.

Unhindered, I kept looking for pearls. Getting closer and closer to the sun on the horizon. Then, I heard a voice saying (and I remembered this vaguely) "Death awaits you while others look from the distance." I remembered that when I heard that, I flew back to the barrier, but, alas, it was too late.

I woke up.

The thing is, I know that death awaits us. But, in this moment of living, life is already here with us. I would rather embrace that, than to fret over uncertainties of the future.

The One With The First Of The New Generation

On 8 May 2009 at 2216 hours (Argentine time), I got an sms from Ma saying that my brother (Izuwan) 's wife (Ain) had given birth to a healthy 3.2kg baby boy.

My first thought was "Oh, forgot they were preggers."
Yes, that's so typical me.
And the fact that I missed their wedding coz someone shredded my leave application to return to Malaysia for that occasion,
made me realize I'm missing out on my brothers' milestones.

Another brother of mine (Fahmee) told me that they named the baby Alexander.
I was disappointed, coz I wanted to use that name for my own.
(wink wink, babe)

It wasn't till a few days later did I manage to talk to Ma.
She said that baby Izzafiq (see picture below) looked so much like me when I was born.

Really, Ma? REALLY?!


Looks more like a mini Yoda.
The hood didn't help none.

So, yeah.
I'm now officially an Uncle.

I'm still undecided on where I stand on kids.
I want to have some of my own one day
(WE do)
But for the moment, I'm not sure if I like kids.
But, they seem to like me lots.

Sigh.

Welcome to the World,
Izzafiq bin Mohd Izuwan